Funny How Things Workout
What a perfect end to the quarter. First, I lose the girl that I love most, which is I feel one of the hardest blows life can give. And yesterday right around 1am, CRACK! I lose my ankle. I jumped high for a rebound and someone collided with me and I landed with my ankle inverted…badly. I remember as soon as I fell. I was in immense pain no shock no adrenaline numbing no nothing. I knew I was done for a while. I was js screaming for like a good ten minutes on the floor of the misty, asphalty outdoor court. THe pain wouldn’t subside. I remember the long ride home where I was grimacing and my leg was trembling. And when I got home it was another couple hours of rolling around in sheer agony. Checked at student health and it might be a ankle fracture. F M L. The only thing that kinda kept my mind off her and our horrible journey and how much she was hurting and now no more ball. I’m really trying to comprehend why this has happened? Yesterday I remember rolling around the floor and thinking sorry for everything I’ve done. Kept apologizing to God to whoever. Now I’m drugged up writing a tumblr post. lollll. i remember thinking i wish somehow she knew and would walk in through the door. LOL everyone has fantasies when they’re cracked out. the only person that would make things better. i remember thinking would i aologize? would i turn her away cuz i didn’t want any pity? lolll i should keep my tylenol hallucinations to myself. But she deleted me from facebook. LOL God you’re making me into a man too fast don’t ya think? A man who acknowledges his mistakes and grows from it, a man who gets over his first heartbreak, and a man who takes care of himself on one leg</3. Absolutely crushing my pride. WHich is a good thing. I know God’s will is perfect. There’s no point of me trying to understand His plan. People have asked why does God do this why does He let things happen? But that is like an ant trying to understand why humans do what they do? Like why do humans cry? Ants will see humans cry and wonder why are there giant water balls trying to hurt me, or why is that person making that face? Ants have no clue. And just like that humans can not grasp what God’s perfect plan is and what He has in store for you.
